life is hard
and so am i
you better give me something
so i don't die
novocaine for the soul
before i sputter out
life is white
and i am black
jesus and his lawyer
are coming back
oh my darling, will you be here
before i sputter out
guess whose living here
with the great undead
this paint by numbers life
is fucking with my head once again
life is good
and i feel great
'cause mother says i was
a great mistake
novocaine for the soul
you'd better give me something
to fill the hole
before i sputter out
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susan's house
going over to susan's house, walking south
down baxter
street -nothing hiding behind this picket
fence
there's a crazy old woman smashing bottles on
the sidewalk
where her house burnt down two years ago
people say that back then she really wasn't
that crazy
going over to susan's house
going over to susan's house
she's gonna make it right
down by the donut prince a fifteen year old
boy lies on the
sidewalk with a bullet in his forehead
in a final act of indignity the paramedics
take off all his
clothes for the whole world to see while they
put him in
the bag
meanwhile and old couple argues inside the
queen bee
the sick fluorescent light shimmering on their
skin
going over to susan's house
going over to susan's house
i can't be alone tonight
take a left down echo park, a kid asks do i
want some crack
t.v. sets are spewing baywatch through the
windows into
black
here comes a girl with long brown hair who
can't be more
than seventeen
she sucks on a red popsicle while she pushes a
baby girl in
a pink carriage -and i'm thinking that must be
her sister
that must be her sister, right?
they go into the 7-11and i keep walking
going over to susan's house
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there's a spider crawling on the bathroom
mirror
right on top of my right eye
and i can't stop staring back
how did i get this way
take a big look at a living lie
rags to rags and rust to rust
how do you stand when you've been crushed
so rags to riches was a bust
sometimes i dream about it
what it's like back home
the railroad tracks and the pussywillow
but i had to leave it
now i go back whenever my tired head hits the
pillow
rags to rags and rust to rust
how do you stand when you've been crushed
so rags to riches was a bust
busted once again
well i'll show them one day
that i can buy and sell the world
and one day i'll come through my american
dream
but it won't mean a fucking thing
rags to rags and rust to rust
how do you stand when you've been crushed
so rags to rags and rust to rust
don't let me go
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beautiful freak
you're such a beautiful freak
i wish there were more just like you
you're not like all of the others
and that is why i love you
beautiful freak, beautiful freak
that is why i love you
beautiful freak, beautiful freak
some people think you have a problem
but that problem lies only with them
just 'cause you are not like the others
but that is why i love you
beautiful freak, beautiful freak
yeah that is why i love you
beautiful freak, beautiful freak
too good for this world
but i hope you will stay
and i'll be here to see that you don't fade
away
you're such a beautiful freak
i bet you are flying inside
dart down and then go for cover
and know that i
i love you
beautiful freak,
you know that i
i love you
beautiful freak, beautiful freak
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not ready yet
there's a world outside
and i know 'cause i've heard talk
in my sweetest dream
i would go out for a walk
but i don't think i'm ready yet
i'm not feeling up to it now
just not that steady yet
and i don't need you telling me how
there's some happiness
and my stone face cracks again
maybe sometime sooner or later
but i don't think i'm ready yet
i'm not feeling up to it now
just not that steady yet
and i don't need you telling me how
so if i leave my room
don't you tell me to lighten up
maybe sometime sooner or later
but i don't think i'm ready yet
i'm not feeling up to it now
just not that steady yet
and i don't need you telling me how
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my beloved monster
my beloved monster and me
we go everywhere together
wearing a raincoat that has four sleeves
gets us through all kinds of weather
she will always be the only thing
that comes between me and the awful sting
that comes from living in a world that's so
damn mean
my beloved monster is tough
if she wants she will disrobe you
but if you lay her down for a kiss
her little heart it could explode
she will always be the only thing
that comes between me and the awful sting
that comes from living in a world that's so
damn
mean
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la
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flower
turn the ugly light off god
wanna feel the night
everyday it shines down on me
don't you think that i see
don't you think that i see what it's all about
hard to look the other way
while the world passes me by
and everyone is trying to bum me out
it's a pretty big world god
and i am awful small
everyday they rain down on me
flower in a hailstorm
flower in a hailstorm
i'm living for the drought
i could throw it back at them
but then i play their game
everyone is trying to bum me out
when i came into this world they slapped me
and everyday since then i'm slapped again
tomorrow's king: an unsightly coward
you see, I know i'm gonna win
turn the ugly light off god
don't wanna see my face
everyday it will betray me
don't you think that i know
don't you think that i know what they're
talking about
if they step on me tonight
they're gonna pay someday
everyone is trying to bum me out
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guest list
are you one of the beautiful people
is my name on the list
wanna be of the beautiful people
wanna feel like i'm missed
hey you with the walkie talkie
i know my clothes are not right
i wish i had my own walkie talkie
that reached to god every night
everyone needs to be somebody
everyone needs to find someone who cares
but i don't know if you know what i mean
'cause i'm never on your list
are you one of the beautiful people
am i on the wrong track
sometimes it feels like i'm made of eggshell
and it feels like i'm gonna crack
everyone needs to be somebody
everyone needs to find someone who cares
but i don't know if you know what i mean
'cause i'm never on your list
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it's like i dressed up in my mama's clothing
it's like i'm talking to a voice that doesn't
exist
it's like i got a wire crossed upstairs
but all i want is just a little truth
and that's it
they say i'm mental but i'm just confused
they say i'm mental but i've been abused
they say i'm mental 'cause i'm not amused by
it all
another anchorman is on the t.v.
he's got that far away and vacant look in his
eye
i turn the channel but nothing is changing
the only truth is that everything is a lie
they say i'm mental but i'm just confused
they say i'm mental but i've been abused
they say i'm mental 'cause i'm not amused by
it all
there's truth in everything
there's truth in lies
with all this knowledge i think i'm gonna be
wise
they say i'm mental but i'm just confused
they say i'm mental but i've been abused
they say i'm mental 'cause i'm not amused by
it all
not at all
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spunky
spunky don't like her uniform
it never fit so good
going back to the orphanage
and the place where her garage once stood
well it's a free-for-all
free-for-all, free-for-all
it's a free-for-all you and me
and if you don't like what they are telling
you
you can't teach a blind man to see
well i can see
spunky looks good in her bright red wig
eating chocolate chip mint ice cream
a cat named lola with a violent past
is balled-up asleep 'cross her knees
and it's a free-for-all
free-for-all, free-for-all
it's a free-for-all you and me
one day the world will be ready for you
and wonder how they didn't see
spunky knows she can save the world
in her own little way
turning in her old uniform
'cause you know it really didn't pay
'cause it's a free-for-all
free-for-all, free-for-all
it's a free-for-all you and me
i'll walk through the world with your name on
my tongue
and your picture etched on my screen
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mama gripped onto the milkman's hand
and then she finally gave birth
years go by still i don't know
who shall inherit this earth
and no one will know my name until it's on a
stone
this could be your lucky day in hell
never know who it might be at your doorbell
this could be your lucky day in hell
waking up with an ugly face
winston churchhill in drag
looking for a new maternal embrace
another tired old gag
am i just a walking bag of chewed up dust and
bones
this could be your lucky day in hell
never know who it might be at your doorbell
this could be your lucky day in hell
father theresa you can't make me into you
i never wanna be like you
why can't you see it's me
you know it's time to let me go
this could be your lucky day in hell
never know who it might be at your doorbell
this could be your lucky day in hell
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manchild
and every time you crave for me i'm, here
and anything you hunger for i'll share
and i will be quietly standing by
while slowly i am dying inside
hold me in your arms
and let me be the one who can feel
like i am a child in love
every time i talk to you you're down
and every time you need a laugh i'm around
and when you forget i'm here i'm not
it isn't really me that you forgot
hold me in your arms
and let me be the one who can feel
like i am a child in love
whisper now
and tell me how you'll watch me
and tell me somehow i'm gonna be alright